Diving Deep

I feel as though I am just skimming the surface. I'm missing some of the details, I'm just floating along the top. So I'm getting by. But I'm not getting at the deeper meanings. I can't feel things deeply. I can't dive deep to where things make sense. I can get through the motions. I can feel myself moving along. But I don't know what lies beneath. I don't know how I used to feel. And I don't know how to reach deep enough to find it.